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Nov. 16th, 2006 | 12:19 am
posted by: nightshade11 in thepride

I'll share then.

My very first full on mental shift was rather frightening. Like I said I've always been very integrated, but I did have this strong shift happen way back. I can't even remember what triggered it. But it came on in such an overwhelming way that I couldn't even walk on two legs. My animal side fully took over and under it my human mind was panicking. Luckily I was home alone. I paced the house on all fours, mostly wandering some times running, making growling/grunty noises, sniffing about and pawing at things as if I'd never been there. I remained this way for a good 20 minutes before it slowly receeded. It scared me so much, because I'd never just lost control, that I really thought I was going crazy. It wasn't until later in life, when I studied therianthropy, that I got a grip on what happened.

I still get strong mental shifts, but I can control them. Usually I can cancel them if I need to, but if I can't I try to go off and be alone. Having my black leopard side so close to the surface, I'm sure, is still giving me some problems. I recently had a psychic friend reveal to me that he had seen feline features appear in my face and it spooked him, badly. He also remarked that I seemed to his senses much more animal than human. The interesting part is that I've never discussed my therianthropy with anyone...except online with a nickname. But the way I see it, if he can notice that much, I'm sure other people can pick it up subconciously.

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